+ changes +

+ changes +

:a:

:happy:

:new:

:year:hopefully everthing become more better.

.dream.

.love.

.friends.

.work.

and

h.o.p.e

+ monday mornin' +

+ monday mornin' +

salam.salam sejahtera.

waa sangat busan hari ku ini.

kosong seperti kotak.

dlm hati ku terdetik 'ingin pulang lebih awal'

sayu segala semua terisi.

just menunggu jam 5 utk ku berangkat pulang.

sangat ku xsabar.

seawal pagi ku bangkit dari katil ku dan melihat segala telatah abg, kakak ipar ku, adik n my sister seakan malas nye nak menuju ke ofis.

memandangkan ku still punya tanggungjawab.

so ku ringan kan kaki ku utk melangkah.

sesampai d opis ya ku teruskan kerja yg tertunda.

nw jam menunjukkan 2.20 pm.

ntah ape yg terdetik d hati ni.

just ingin pulang.pulang.dan pulang.

that why ku mencoret diary ni sementara menunggu nya (5pm)

release sumtime.

+ me better +

+ me better + eyyo :D and afternoon. here i'd listen youtube lilly allen "not fair" i really like her songs and it's so fun + chicky songs. today i'm not going anywhere just stayin' at home and release some space at cc. hehe :D in my head just edit blogger.blog.and blog. nothin'.and nothin' special. p/s : while am bored and just listening my fav song. please be inform. i've nothing to worried. for her or what. now i'm just follow what i should be. so thanks a lot for bein' my someone once time ago. and i appreciated what u'd done for me. but it's just stop like that. like we've never meet. peace!

+ seharian +

+ seharian +

haih.

sangat ku xfaham dgn corak duniawi neh.

i keep thingkin'.

was it myfault???

hanya kerana nila setitik abes sume rosak?

should u use this sentence?

for me thats not.

once ur be my "some one" then i'll be u forever.

but once u throw me like a rubish then let me know.

i'll stand like nothing happend.

don't just make me like im dead.

unfair for our r***********

this is not bout love.

this is bout feeling' and understandin'.

(p/s : am just proud with my old friends.)

that all.

only her

hopefully shes d one whos always understand my prob.

for those who don't know the truth don't act like u knew everythings.

like u knew somethings i hidden.

even everythings i'd story but it's not d same.

u r totally wrong

i rather stay away like nothings happend than be a ****

all this is fake.

will never help me.

but just + more biggest problem of d life.

!out of my business!

but sumtime ku terpkir salah semua yg terjadi haruskah tertuju ke arah ku?

is that beginin' from me.

i try. try to stay away.

xper la. ape yg da jadi terjadi.

dgn itu ku terlihat segala kebenaran d depan mata.

maaf andai ku xsempurna wahai 'S******'

aku xsempurna seperti mereka yg laen yg kamu kenal.

sebaeknya am just 'away'

better than together.

+ pagi +

+ pagi +

pagi.pagi.pagi :D

yeah ari neh ari baru utk ku :D

i've to change.and i must change.

whateva is bein' 'new'

oke yesterday i'd learn many things about 'solat' i mean sunat.

hehe.

sound ackward but this is the true.

everyday people make a change bout everythings.

about

'self'

but it's briliant.

today like usual my bro just goin out to work around 6.30.

then after 8 mysis wake up and go to bath while i'm still lay at my room. huh!

such have heavy things in myhead.

jue don't go! jue go! jue don't go!

and last is 'm choosin'

"GO"

go! go! jue!

hehe.

then around 8.40 i'm goin' out.

and thats the reason i alwys late come to office.

soory bOs! tada house.

am leavin' u :D

hopefully my days become worth and worthy like a diamond :D

whoa!

finished!

+ doa awal and akhir tahun +

+ doa awal and akhir tahun +

jum i just wanna share this :D so for those are islamic read this

::doa new year and end year::

Barangsiapa yang membaca doa awal tahun ini, insya Allah dirinya akan terpelihara daripada gangguan dan godaan syaitan di sepanjang tahun tersebut.

doa awal tahun Maksudnya: Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia. Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

@----@

Barangsiapa yang membaca doa akhir tahun ini, maka syaitan akan berkata:"Hampalah kami di sepanjang tahun ini".

doa akhir tahun

Maksudnya: Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu. Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

+deep+

+deep+

alhmdulillah today everythings was back t d nrmal.

yestrday i just got wash brain from one of myfriend at 'ipb'

about solat and everything :D

i thnkful for him for realize me about all tis things.

sumtime we cant get true friend who will bring us on the right track.

like he said Allah S.W.T give d most 'problem' just want to test how much patient

so for me is

"believe that Allah S.W.T is capable of 'anything'

and 'nothing' is difficult or impossible for HIM

to accomplish"

tomorrow i'll be at JB.

to see my nephew and my sister (eight months)

xsaba nyer.

+ d com +

+ d com +

yep this is atromen action

(",) plus action kamen(",)

::myever cuties boy (nephew) ::

+ recent activity +

+ recent activity +

yes! there just an activity i'd make :D

and d best things is d structure is originaly.

am not edited it.

only a few things like frame and tag.

this is Tasik Titiwangsa :D

adorable. for d first time am goin' to .Aquaria klcc.

i bet this is d best!

but am to tired

..huhu..

+ rather +

+ rather + .everythings come and goes just like that.

i rather 'lost everythings'

lost job

lost friendship

lost d love

and whoever.

* pretend for my self only *

+ skills+

+ skills+

today i'd learn about photoshop.

even i dont know it very well but i'd learning it as well.

yesterday i was spend my time with that.

but sumtime as a human bein' i not runnin' out from d mistake.

i want what i want.

i want "DSLR Digital Camera".

i need to be a professional photographer :D

and yet how am i going to weave all this together

hehe.

what a speechless!

today am gonna go to mysister hotel.

there she has a meeting.

d best from her.

then i've been there this nite.

wait.wait.wait

ha! muhammad Farihin u wait me till i get through u.

and my lil sis also.

whee..

+ twilight +

+ twilight +

hah! neh nak tgk cter nih la.

org len sbuk duk tgk then i xtgk agy.

ishk taleh jadik.

i've to go.

see alone.

yeah!

twilight

+ free +

+ free +yesterday am not workin' actualy.

for whole day am stayin' at home and just finish with hearin' d musix.musix.musix.

i turn off d tv and just sit + wonder everythin'

again.again.again and again.

but it keep mess me.

haiya. what've i done.

my lord! please put me out of tis thin'.

then after bored with d musix i need to drink.

"milo ais tabur" gain energy actly.

...

then i sat up on d sofa. i again' my brain work keep in thinkin' HATED!

adui. just feels like im a damn person just waitin' for punishment.

am not scare with whoever/person but i scare with judgement from HIM.

i'v e to out of this. myself n all their whos pitch in.

fake off!

....

but today :D like usual am comin' work with d good and +ve mind.

weah! am tired.tired.tired.

hish! so bored when i think like this.

make some change do not make it work.

yeah thats what i here.

......

sister herda , Farihin and lil aishah.

just wait for me oke.

i'll be there soon.

he. i'd been thinkin' just be me 'jue' before.

what out. and don't make some troble 'again'.

plus with this new movement hopefully will make me 'set as a free mind'.

......

amin!amin!amin!amin!amin!

+ countin' +

+ countin' +

a few day yet 2010 will come :D

so with that i suppose i've a dream or new hope.

but everyday is d same always.

i hate myword.i hate my personality.i.hate d way i thin'.i hate d way i hate.i also hate everythin'.

am to much hate everything about me!

this should't be.

enough for

i'm not belong to be here.

+ mrt map +

+ mrt map +

click this map singapura for more info :D

+ bit +

+ bit +

haiya. today am feelin' bad.

yesterday i was thingkin'

was should i do.

i hope they pitch in with this.

but today nothin' special.

lunch time i was goin' out with my bos, yati and anis.

we lunch at eastern mall.

my menu is ktiaw goreng' and laici :D

nyum.nyum.nyum.

+ sehari bersama +

+ sehari bersama +

location : changin Airport (suppose i spellin' it rite)

this time we chill sampai rase puas and also puas hati.

yelar agak lame xmenjejakkan kaki d bumi sg.

yeah i admit i love to see this view :D

everytime i see yesh! but d best is almost be the best.

like us.

location : otw to the arab street

fuh! this time am become tired..huhu..

tired but fun.

oh no! please stop..

hah nak taw tis time my sis saje jer amek kesempatan nak buli i.

hehe...tanpa beliau mybe am not d strong person..mybe..

theres muhammad helmi with my lil sis aishah :D

looks like muhaamad helmi bored..ahha.

we're enjoy.

there is

malay haritage center

i'd been there for d 1st time :D

merenung mase depan dgn begitu asyik.huhu.

capture by muhammad helmi.

yah this time very happy. especially him muhammad farihin.

xoxoxo.

+ hurray +

+ hurray +

am happy bcoz just went from Sg.

the place my mother was born.

i meet all mycousin and we knowin' each other.

thanx for pakman who always care and guide us on there.

+ light +

+ light +

in this photo : lake garden taiping

yesterday was d beatifull moment :D

with myspecial one ♥ :D

yati.mas.shida.yana.

+ beutifull may +

+ beutifull may +

.Stubborn and hard-hearted.

.Strong-willed and highly motivated.

.Sharp thoughts.

.Easily angered.

.Attracts others and loves attention.

.Deep feelings.

.Beautiful physically and mentally.

.Firm Standpoint.

.Needs no motivation.

.Easily consoled.

.Systematic (left brain).

.Loves to dream.

.Strong clairvoyance.

.Understanding.

.Sickne...ss usually in the ear and neck.

.Good imagination.

.Good physical.

.Weak breathing.

.Loves literature and the arts.

.Loves traveling.

.Dislike being at home.

.Restless.

.Not having many children.

.Hardworking.

.High spirited.

.Spendthrift.

p/s : it's me :D and you.

+ ngilu +

+ ngilu +

huh!

yesterday was d bad day.

i try make it nothin'.

but thnx to Ms Docter.

help me :D

everything settle.

but just a lil not yet.

wait soon.

yeah! today am work just like others day.

but workin' without my friend 'yt'.

shes ill mybe.

hope shes get more better soon.

chiau :)

+ puaskah +

+ puaskah +

Puaskah kau lukaiku

Puaskah kau sakitiku

Puaskah khianatiku

Puaskah hoo.. Sayangku

..

Di manakah nuranimu

Di mana akal sehatmu

Sekarang kau campakanku

Setelah kau dapatkanku

..

Chorus:

..

Mungkin hanya bila ku mati

Kau 'kan berhenti 'tuk menyakiti

Sampai kapan aku begini

Terus begini

Terus engkau lukai

..

Ingatlah saat yang lalu

Saat kau peluk diriku

Tapi kini semua lalu

Kau tega khianatiku

..

Chorus

+nyum.nyum+

+nyum.nyum+

.one day.

just chekin' this.

so cute.

pink color.

so clik meto see more.

+ a very good mornin' +

+ a very good mornin' +

i wanna share sumthing with u all :D

for whom whos never submit

click here :

'penama for kwsp'

please fill up this form and sent to address kwsp.

this is for future.

because this will help u for ur futher.

anthing happend we would know.

cheers =)

+ seimbas +

+ 3 in 1 +

+ 3 in 1 +

i miss them!

today nothings am done.

only workin' then fill up my day with edit all pict.

am alone.

p/s : think bout tmorrow and futher.

+ everyday +

+ everyday +

location : Perhentian Seremban

hee :D

yep! today i admit am really tired.

i've to rest actly.

in my head i just think wanna absent :D

hihi..what d good idea actly.

but am to bored to stay alone.

then i take dcsion to work.

hari ni even diri ku mengantuk ku masih leh berdiri :D

xrasa sperti d awangan.

mybe dpt tido utk 3 jam lbih suda memadai.

pape pun actly at my office even am not there thats not a prob coz system to slow!

so slow!

huhu.

hated!

i can't done my work.

yes! my license car :D

sangat tidak sabar.

+ trainin' +

+ trainin' +

whee :D finish my traini' yesterday.

pple dunno what kind trainin' i was tke yesterday.

but actly proton will make new 'again' system.

am gonna crazy. becoz only 'vehicle' 'end customer' again 'vehicle'

then im dyin' agaga..

btw Siti Aishah at us trainer.

thanx so much to her for gain us more knowledge.

thats mean i take 3 trainin' for 3 new and change system.

huh! but am not pursue it.

yes! all my stuff now becomin' 'Pink'

whos d people havechange this?

hehe.

only me know it! jue! go go.

+ on my way +

+ on my way +

yes..that dat i went to my sis house.

really happy.

out of problem for the moment.

see all d 'telahat c kecil muhammad farihin'

ouh! my sis shes 7 months pregnant :D

soon i'll get one more 'anak buah'.

hihi :D

adorable!

fmi : prOgrams

+ sedia kala +

+ sedia kala +

today am not feelin' good. huh! i dunno what was happend actly. but what eva: life, live like nothing happend. :D p/s : jOhnnys Restaurant.nyum.nyum.

:D

:: at johnnys restaurant ::

+ whe +

+ whe +

salam sejahtera :D lets dbook story by word.

hem.

seems today not a good day like everydays.

i've to think more deeply bout what should i done.

may Allah S.W.T bless everthings.

.amin.

today to much suprised!

really suprised.

huhu.

only me knowin' it.

aduhyai.

+ my insp +

+ my insp +

i want this.

wahaha..

::D60::

ku cuba untuk membina hobi baru.

even hobi ni suda lama ku minati.

tp inyallah akan d laksana kan impian ni.

be a 'photog person'

hehe.kelaka lar but it's not imposible.

click here 4 more info :D

+ smile +

+ smile +

d best lah. wat² tade pape kan. 0-0

pape pun today seems like everthing oke.

insyallah..

btw come i wanna share sumthing

clickanime and layan kan.

sumtime it's d best.

hilang tension.

jum layan.

jue.jue.jue

+ sebiasa sahaja +

ku xpetah bersuara.

ku cume insan biasa.

ku hnya perlu kan ruang utk ku berfikir.

ku punya perasaan yg bercampur baur.

ku cuba utk perbaeki diri.

kadang² sume tu xkn d pndang.

tp aku hnya aku yg lemah dari segala segi.

lemah menjaga diri sendiri

masih perlu d perbaiki.

beri ku ruang utk berdiri.

Manual Loan Calculator

+ manual loan calculator +

+ this adorable just 4 my refresh no for nothing +

jum loan x interest x berapa tahun + jumlah loan

'bahagi'

.berapa bulan.

example :

42,000 x 3.75% x 9 +42,000

'bahagi'

108

monthly : RM 520.13

thanx!

+ natural +

hee :D

hip² hurray!

hihi.

actly i've learn hw to be ma self.

but am deeply lost with what've i done.

certain time i don't understand it.

i wont it keep messy my head.

i need a little guide to stand!

please.please.please

+ superb +

today just like others day.

feel warm.

xmandi bukan i ya.

hehe.

aini ku cuba mgun seawal pagi

seawal pun 7.30am.

kire oke la kan. huhu.

actly ku suda terasa beban utk bgun seawal pagi.

ku suda tiada kekuatan dlm diri ni.

almost 2 years.

after my mum dot.dot.

no.no.

hurm ainih ku ke opis pun suram2 sepi.

segalanya messy.

be strong jue!

ku keliru dgn ape yg hrus di buat.

business.business.business.

angan² cuma.

bless me.

+ totally lost +

keep think.

totally lost.lost.lost.

serabut teramat.

wut kind dcsion should i made.

i've my answers.

only me.

+ sweet memory on 04.10.2009 +

her name is ya.

yes she so cute and talktive.

she only 4years old.

love to snap pict.

here me and lil ya :D

this ya with mybeloved father.

+ mission +

yep this my best nephew :D

sangat nakal.

sangat comel.

dan sangat banyak telatah.

aituh balik kampung best giler layan si kecik nih.

geram nk tubit pipi diep selalup.

huhuk.

sngt xsabar utk brjmpe die next time.

nanak!nanak!nanak!

agagaga...

+ suasana yg sementara +

+ 27 hb +

huhu..27hb balik.

tergesa.

pape pun ku selamat pulang dari kmpung halaman ku.

and 28hb adalah date aku berkemas dan bergerak kepada rumah baru ku.

hee :D

all d best.

selamat menyambut aidil fitri yang bakal menjelma :D

dear all

selamat menyambut

aidilfitri .maaf.zahir.& batin.

semoga raya ini memberi 1000 erti

kegembiraan

dan

kebahagiaan

di samping bertemu

sahabat dan sanak saudara.

amin..

+ hilang +

ku semakin tidak memahami segalanya :(

i've lost my trust. i've lost the one i love.

semuanya pudar dan semakin hilang.

tertanya2..

kenapa harus ku yg terpilih.

sngt berat ujian yg d beri.

hilang arah.

=[

* Ya Allah Berikan lah aku kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ni.

+ quit bz +

i admit da lmaer giler xupdated my blogger.

fuh. memacam jadik.

but it's a happy life.

actly bz da mempengaruhi segala rutin harian ku.

yep.

dlm bulan puasa nih ku perlukan bnyk kesabaran.

xkire la luar dan dalam.

i try make a change.

hopefully it's eazy.

:: aminn ::

things goin' eazy and crazy.

+ runsin' +

dear world.

am confusin' with all the messy.

help me to solved this.

messy day!

aku xpham.

sngt xpham.

aku ke die ke ataw beliau.

stiap kali pun persoalan ni xpernah selesai.

aku sndiri yg harus amik jln penyelesaian.

aku xsnggup tp aku perlu.

sbb smpai biler.

untuk ape aku.

sangt² aku xpaham.

seorang aku yg tersepit tanpa apa-apa

bodoh ke aku.

ataw aku cube menidak kan ape yg di depan mata.

no.bukan aku.aku xsalah.aku xtaw.

fade up.fade up.fade up.fade up.

+ belongs to him +

+ lihat dengan teliti apakah d sebalik dedaunan kemerahan +

..hihik..